遥远的回忆，儿时的梦想时时刺痛我似乎早已麻木的心灵。
A distant memory, a childhood dream had always hurt me seem numb mind.
说是"似乎"，是因为我还能在今天，还能在《我的未来不是梦》征文比赛上，还能用我这双迟钝的手写下我苦涩的心情。
Say that "seems" because I could today, but also in the "My Future Is Not a Dream" Essay competitions, but also with my handwriting that I am the double slow bitter mood.
我想，如果我的这些心情文字还能重新唤起我的战斗力的话，也不枉我这几个月来对生命的思索。
I think if I can re-evoke the feelings of my characters fighting words, but also tour worthwhile past few months I thought of life.
如果这些文字对大家有一点益处的话。
If these words all of us little good to say.
呜呼!我无话可说，让泪水代表一切吧!
Alas! I have nothing to say, let the tears on behalf of all right!
很小的时候，我就喜欢读书。喜欢读关于周恩来同志的书。
Very young, I like reading. Like reading a book on Zhou Enlai.
是因为我喜欢周那伟大的人格，光明磊落的一生，崇高，在他的身上尤其突出。
Because I like to Premier Zhou was a great personality, honorable life, the noble, in his body in particular.
他没有自己的荣辱得失，连同他的骨灰都被撒进了祖国的江河大地。
He did not honor their own gains and losses, along with his ashes were scattered into the rivers of the earth mother.
他对国家，对人民，连同他的爱情都是一心一意，坚贞不移。
His country, the people, together with his single-minded love is, unchangeable unwavering.
所以，在我心灵的深处，曾立志要做一名伟人，以为榜样，以"为中华之崛起"的理想为理想。
Therefore, in the depths of my mind, had determined to do a great man, as an example the Prime Minister to the Prime Minister, "China's rise as" ideal for the ideal.
还喜欢读关于张海迪和张海迪写的书，从这些书的字里行间，我总能找到两个字——坚强。
Also like to read about Zhang Haidi and Zhang Haidi write a book, from these books read between the lines, I can always find a word - strong.
张海迪的一生是不幸的，但又是幸运的。
Zhang Heidi's life is unfortunate, but fortunate.
不幸的是她从小身患重病，幸运的同样是因为她从小就重病在身。
Unfortunately, she was seriously ill since childhood, is also lucky because her childhood ill health.
正因为他的幸与不幸，再加上他的坚强，才成就了日后的她。
Because he's a bad, plus his strong achievements in the future before her.
试想，如果她一直就是一个和你我一样的身体健壮者，那么大家想想她成功的几率会有多大？
Just think, if she has been and is a strong body like you and me who, if you think her chances of success will be how much？
其实这个问题我们想想自己就知道了，那么请就在这个时刻认真思考一下我们自己吧!
In fact, ask yourself this question we know, then please at this time to seriously think about our own it!
是的，张海迪是一个崇高的普通人。
Yes, Heidi is a noble Zhang ordinary.
我也曾经想做一个成功的普通人，通过坚强，通过奋斗，打造一个不平凡的自己，开创一片出于自己的天地。
I have also tried to be an ordinary person of success, through strong, through the struggle to create an extraordinary themselves, to create a world out of their own.
可是，现在，到现在我做了什么呢？我做了什么去实现我的梦想呢？
But now, now I do it？ What did I do to make my dreams come true？
为了奖学金我勇争第一，是的，我得到了。
I am brave fight for scholarships first, yes, I got.
一学期，两学期。我每学期都是第一。
One semester, two semesters. I is the first semester.
为了某个荣誉，我奋力奔跑。
To a certain honor, I am struggling to run.
是的，我得到了，主席，部长，'优干''三好'，荣誉挂满了的全身。
Yes, I have been, the President, ministers, 'You dry''Miyoshi', honor covered with the body.
这就是崇高吗？蓦然，我转身一笑，不屑的一笑。
This is the highest it？ Suddenly, I turned to smile, contemptuous smile.
这样的崇高我最好不要：好累。
This high I'd better not: so tired.
还是做一个真实的自我比较好，奖金不拿，荣誉不争。
Or do a real self better, do not take money, honor indisputable.
上课想睡就睡,想上通宵就上，想逃课就逃。
Class sleep all, want to go to the overnight, like skipping ran away.
说我不崇高吗？无所谓。
That I do not noble it？ Does not matter.
说我犯错误吗？我不怕，反正我还年轻，不是有人说过：犯错误是年轻人的天性吗？
That I make mistakes it？ I am not afraid, anyway, I'm still young, not someone say: making mistakes is the nature of young people do？
于是我便放纵着自己，在自己编织的网中胡乱的挣扎。
So I will indulge with their own, weaving in their own net in the wild fight.
想逃，却始终找不到呼吸的缺口。回首往事，展望未来，无尽的空虚压在了我的心头，想大声高呼，可声音已变得嘶哑;想努力回望，却发现对儿时已没有了记忆;看看前方，云遮雾拦，虚无缥茫。
Bailing, but still can not find the gaps in breathing .Looking back, Looking ahead, the endless emptiness down on my heart, like shouting out loud, can voice had become hoarse; want to look back, they found that a child has no memory; look at the front, clouds, fog bar, nothing misty Mang.
我就像站在高山之巅，空旷的头脑已没有了方向，眩晕，眩晕......
I like standing on top of mountains, open mind has no direction, dizziness, vertigo ......
唉!呜呼哀哉!
Alas! Blown from the water!
我到底是怎么了？我是谁？
I am in the end is how it？ Who am I？
我怎么会站在这里？你们怎么又会坐在那里？
How can I stand here？ How will you sit？
忽然，我醒了，啊，原来是一场梦!仅是一场梦而已。
Suddenly, I woke up, ah, the original is a dream! It is only a dream.
我需要梦吗？
I need to dream？
当然，不过绝对不是这样的梦罢了!我相信我的未来不是这样的梦!
Of course, such a dream, but certainly not everything! I believe my future is not such a dream!
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